What keeps you up at night?

Really, Plinky? Why must you keep choosing topics on which I’ve already written? If the next prompt is ‘Explain why you think you own the world’s dumbest cat‘, I’ll know that you’re reading my blog and picking from there. I suppose it could also mean that I just write about really common topics. I’d prefer to think it’s the former.

Insomnia keeps me up at night. I’ve been an insomniac for as long as I can remember. The blackness isn’t comforting to me like it is to some. I know exactly why I am an insomniac, too, but I’m certainly not going to go into that here.

I’m sure lots of people on here sleep perfectly normally, so this question can be easily answered with that one odd and erroneous time when there was a bump in the night, or thinking about making their car payment tomorrow kept them awake. But for me, a professional non-sleeper, you might as well ask me why I breathe.

As I write this, I’m waiting for coffee to brew so that I can shake off the haze of the sleeping pills I took last night. They leave me groggy and it takes me quite a while to regain control of my brain in the morning, but it’s better than lying in the darkness, fighting with sleep. Coffee is my only salvation, which, of course, just makes the inability to sleep even worse. It’s a vicious circle.

The pill don’t always work, though. Sometimes, even if I take more than the normal dose, I still won’t be able to sleep. I lay there, cringing, in the dark.

Damn, I was just about to write something I’ve already written again. Fine. Have it your way. This topic is not for me. If you must, read Fuck You, Sandman! or Letter To A Nemesis where I personified the hell outta sleep and my inability to have it.