The hardest thing about losing the person you loved and trusted most in the world is keeping the […]
grief
There’s this site called howlongago.com that I use to find out precisely how long I’ve survived without you. […]
Slowly, bit by bit, everything is being taken from me. I have lost so much, but I have […]
A friend of mine stopped by the other day with a cigar and some 12 year aged bourbon. […]
When Male first died, I wanted time to pass really quickly. I wanted it to be ten years […]
Male hated birthdays. He never celebrated them and tried to hide the fact from everyone he knew. He […]
When I found out that Dave–author, artist, blogger, and Rarasaur‘s husband–died, my heart didn’t shatter. It had already […]
A few months before Male died, he asked me to come up with three songs that always remind […]
I didn’t get dumped. I did not get divorced. We didn’t break up. We aren’t taking a trial […]
This is the name of a post that was in my draft folder. There was nothing here but […]
I wake up at 3 am sideways in my bed, displaced by dog and cat. My mouth is […]
It has been 3 months and 23 days since Male died. In that time, I’ve been merely subsisting, […]
I don’t have much to celebrate this year besides my new teeth and the fact that I am […]
A lot of you are getting engaged, getting married, having kids, going on vacations, doing coupley type things, […]
Yeah, so I skipped a week. Sue me. My shrinky dink wants me to write every damn day […]
I survived the memorial thanks to Klonopin and friends. This week was terrible. The closer it came to […]
Fish Of Gold 