The pain is there before I open my eyes. I wake up with grief the same way I […]
Category Archive: grief diary
About the death of the love of my life.
Losing your love, your life partner, your best friend, and the person who was most capable of cheering […]
The hardest thing about losing the person you loved and trusted most in the world is keeping the […]
There’s this site called howlongago.com that I use to find out precisely how long I’ve survived without you. […]
Slowly, bit by bit, everything is being taken from me. I have lost so much, but I have […]
When Male first died, I wanted time to pass really quickly. I wanted it to be ten years […]
Male hated birthdays. He never celebrated them and tried to hide the fact from everyone he knew. He […]
Somehow, I always knew this day would come. I knew that, one day, I’d wake up thinking that […]
When I found out that Dave–author, artist, blogger, and Rarasaur‘s husband–died, my heart didn’t shatter. It had already […]
A few months before Male died, he asked me to come up with three songs that always remind […]
If things aren’t unbearably terrible in my life, I tend to leave well enough alone. I just go […]
I didn’t get dumped. I did not get divorced. We didn’t break up. We aren’t taking a trial […]
This is the name of a post that was in my draft folder. There was nothing here but […]
You are going to Reseda To make love to a model from Ohio Whose real name you don’t […]
I wake up at 3 am sideways in my bed, displaced by dog and cat. My mouth is […]
I don’t have much to celebrate this year besides my new teeth and the fact that I am […]
Fish Of Gold 